Uncharted Futures

So here i am now again, at a crossroads, where the path i walk, will be the path that i will take. Most like i would never be able to turn back and try on a different path. But here comes a problem. Its begining to get difficult to see where im going, and im hesitating, still stuck at the crossroads, not knowing what to do, not know which path to take.

It used to be so much easier. Your aspirations, your passions, following what your heart says and staying true to it. Previously i have done that, and i have reach where im supposed to reach. So straightforward. Like Dorothy walking on a yellow brick road. But as it progressed, and new avenues are open. The paths get darker and dimmer… less obvious. And now the path ahead of me, is barely a path, going into a jungle of uncertainty, where i have to carve my own path, if its the correct direction that im going to in the first place.

This is i think the first time ever that im truly having a lot of doubt to where im truly going. To whether this is my true calling. To not able to see, and imagine what life would be like 4 to 5 years from now. I dont have a map, i dont have a direction to follow. Im hesitant to blaze my own path.

Blogging can be so last year, and it takes time and effort to do a proper writeup. Those of you who follows my blog would probably know by now that i can sometimes not have any major updates for weeks at a time.

So now you can follow me on twitter. The twitter widget is at the bottom of the side panel. Any updates will be reflected over there. I plan to tweet little updates on what im doing now in NTU, maybe the things i learn for the day, or stuff im doing at that moment in time.

I plan to tweet on my iphone, but im still on the waiting list, waiting for Singtel to notify me on the availability. Im hoping i could get at the end of this month, so that it could really help me organise and manage my time properly. Its gonna be hectic in NTU, im feeling the pressure when i look at the some of the modules’ content. How i wish  i could remember everything i learn from Poly. It would be such a great help right now. I have to start learning the basics all over again (‘ala Physcial Chemistry) and on top of additional content to be taught in class. Tweeting would be the perfect solution to broadcast little updates about me.

Stay tune.

Ok im back im back.

Its been a hefty 3 weeks or so. The transition from military life to civilian life aint an easy one, especially when a new phase of your life is just looming ahead of you. Yes thats right, its my start of a university life. Ive been waiting for a while now and im pretty excited about it. I mean i know its gonna be tough, challenges that ive never encountered before. Speed bumps in my life are gonna come my way sooner or later. But nonetheless im still going all out to make my 4 year experience a memorable one.

In the last days in NS, i had to handover all my tasks and appointment to my understudy. I had to say my goodbyes to a lot of people, some of which are very good friends indeed. Ill definitely miss them alot. Ill definitely in some ways miss the life there in Jurong Camp. I  hope the best in everyone over at that camp.

And within a week, BAM! School is about to start. I need to thank Joash and Jamie for msning me on the 4 of Aug, asking me which tutorial group im in. If not for that, i would have remained clueless and missed my chance in confirming my matriculation into NTU. 4 of Aug happened to be my last day in Camp and also the last day for the online matriculation submission in the NTU’s website. It would have completely missed the boat if not for those 2. Thank you!!

On the day of the freshmen ceremony, i met a number of familiar faces. Apart from Joash, Jamie, Shiming and Chiong Jin, Lizhen paid a visit, which was nice and a few others, current senior students in NTU who were once our Juniors in NYP! I was introduced to Shiming and Jamies orientation group and i must say they are a bunch of nice people. Really nice. The ceremony was great, the feeling of being reunited with Joash, Jamie and Shiming was ecstatic. We reminisce about the past in NYP and how life in NTU is a stark reminders to the good old past, which i still treasure thank you very much. Oh how i wish Eng Pau and hock, ben, cher, and dee could be in NTU as well. Life on campus would truly be a blast! It would be like going through Poly all over again. The stress, the projects, the assignments, mugging in the library, hanging out after school.

But one week till the start of the semester is too short for me. Im not truly prepared emotionally and mentally. The new academic system is a lot to handle and i was quite overwhelmed. But i think in getting the hang of it. The choosing of electives and adding and dropping of modules was confusing at first,  but i understood the sytem somehow already. Looking at the big picture, its kinda interesting to be given the freedom to craft your own timetable based on the modules your have registered. You are completely independent now. I like the feeling, but i have some trepidations about it as well. I still dont know alot of people among the 200 strong contingent taking the same course as me. And given the flexibility of the schedule, i doubt it would be like in poly anymore, where you go through stuff as a class all the way through from the 1st year to the 4th year. It would be a greater challenge for me in this area because of the number of friends i have to make in such a short time. But im sure ill figure it out.

Next week is the real thing. Life in university starts now. It has begun….